an unlikely molecule
just two gases sharing a secret
covalent alter-ego Continue reading Dissolved
I have always been an overthinker. I’m a Virgo – Worrying is my jam. I will get a tickling of an idea in my head and then my mind starts to add to it line by line, like that kids game where each person’s random sentence builds a nonsensical story. I have worked myself into an irrational panic in this way many times. Continue reading Stop the Anxiety Train! This is Where I Get Off
Life is too important to live in hardship and despair.It is one of those truths from the universe. So simple, yet so elusive. We seem to spend so much of our daily energy struggling. Continue reading Life is too important
I won’t say I “hated” my body, but I have found it to be an irritating nuisance for most of my life since puberty. I have always struggled with body image, and weight was the major area of concern for me. Continue reading Me and My Body: A Tumultuous Love Affair
Perhaps there is some dirty laundry that I should not air. Perhaps I should shove it deep into the crawlspace and pretend it’s not there. Continue reading My dirty laundry
No matter how elegant I purported the occasion to be or how much finesse I pretended with the tip of my glass, my animal brain knew the truth: I would be drinking this wine until well past the last drop, until the bottles were lining the table, until I had to turn to whiskey or leftover vermouth at the back of my liquor cabinet to finish the job. Continue reading Wine Stains
I’ve always been a bit Weird.Ever since I was a little kid I have observed that look on people’s faces when I have said something or behaved in a way that was out of the rhythm of the expected. But when I would drink, all my awkwardness would fall away. Continue reading Welcome to my Weird.
Sometimes it happens. I don’t know why a certain day or a certain event seems to tip the scale and trigger the Beast more than others. It rises up in me fast, starting from a tiny little swirl at first. Continue reading Losing My Shit
When we can reach in and hold each other in our shared human-ness we will be connected in love and positive power. Together we rise in flame. Continue reading Judge Not. Fear Not.
January 7, 2018 is the day that I made the decision to quit drinking.It seems like such a small thing when you look at the words of it: I Decided to Quit Drinking. Like I just made a decision and then that was that and all was good in the world. But of course, it’s so much more nuanced than that. I was SO AFRAID. It was like I was about to say Goodbye to my entire Being; like I was going to strip off all of my layers of self that I had spent the last 25 years of my life crafting around me and start over bare and nude. Continue reading Finding The Razzle-Dazzle: My Origin Story